Current Mood: Comforted
This Christmas was pretty wacked. My best friend in the whole world, wants to get married. But her family is completely against it. So she came over and talked to my parents about the whole dilemma. My parents are like her second parents. At the current moment she feels more comfortable talking to them then any one in her family. Extended or otherwise.
She would constantly show up at my house giving me and my parents updates on what was going on in her life. How her parents took the news, what ring she bought, what her bishop said on the subject, etc. I was constantly on edge. Waiting for the next update. Some times it was days before I heard anything! I was so freaked out. Having my mom hanging over me wasn't much help either when you put the two of us in a room we can come up with ideas of what could have happened. And they are usually disasters. Needless to say I was pretty distraught while me and my mom made pies for the neighbors. But as soon as my friend showed up I was fine once again.
The other distressing part about my Christmas was the fact that my favorite brother from Arizona only came and saw me twice during the two weeks he was here in Utah. And both visits were only for a couple of hours... It's kind of depressing. And his wife was in a bad mood both times. But it's not necessarily her fault. She's pregnant. With that fact behind us we must forgive and forget. although with the baby coming I can only see this situation get worse. I hope not I hope they come visit often. They have to! It's going to be my first niece or nephew! I thinks it's a boy but that's besides the point. They must let me see HIM!!!!
The last point on why the Christmas season was so... down in the dumps was... none, I repeat none of my friends could ever hang out. I have lots of friends that could hang out but none of my close friends. My best friend in the whole world (as stated above) was going through family problems. My other really really close friend that comes in a close second to my best friend was put under house arrest (so to speak) because her mom missed her so much and would not let her out of her sight! My newly acquired best friend lives in Lehi and had to work in Provo so he really couldn't hang out much. And my two other friends always have family stuff going on and couldn't really make time for little old me. But that's how it is every Christmas with them. So they are forgiven. Well they all are. They all had good reasons. But that fact didn't make this Christmas any less lonely. And it's not like they didn't try. Chase (the one in Lehi) answered the phone when no one else would and he would talk to me even if he couldn't hang out with me. Ashley (very very close second) tried to have me over to her house even though she couldn't leave but her mother freaked out over that too. And Meagan (the one in love) she had me over as much as she could, but due to the current circumstances that wasn't very often.
I have a few other friends. All guys. All LDS. All close to my age. So if you know anything about the Mormon church you know that that makes them all on missions! Including the guy I spent last Christmas with. Chad. He is the love of my life. I'm going to marry him as soon as he comes home. (We will have to wait a year after he comes home but that is also besides the point.) One of the reasons I was so lonely this Christmas is because I miss him so very much. Why does the Christmas season make you want to have ALL your loved ones near? anyways so I was trying to be distracted and it really didn't work. I was trying not to think of Chad and how is family got to talk to him on Christmas and I didn't. I was trying not to remember last Christmas and how much I wished it was that Christmas again. And was trying not to wish that Chad would call me. Because that would mean that he would be breaking the rules. And he told his sister how much he didn't want to break any rules because that would take him away from the spirit. But like I said. I failed. I hoped and wished and thought.
Christmas day I even kept my cell phone on me all day. And like the secret says my thoughts flew to the heavens and granted me my wish. Chad called me! I was so happy I was shaking I all most cried. Maybe God granted me my one true Christmas wish because he knew how much I just need a friend. How much I need to know he still loved me. Cared for me. So even though my Christmas was kind of down. That one Christmas present made it all worth it. In the end this might be one of the most memorable Christmases ever.
Third Meagan didn't walk down the stairs. She ran. And then walked down the hall. Second tip off. I shut my lap top and knelled on the bed waiting. And then she walks in my room smiles at me says "Night!" and walks off. I roll my eyes and just wait for her to come back. She did with an even bigger smile on her face. And at that point I knew it! "So...." I said "I got my first KISS!" Meagan replied. And yes I did squeal and jump off the bed (there is no room to run in my room) and grab her spin her around and through her on the bed. That's why it didn't hurt to much. But at the force I threw her and with me on top of her I can see why she might have thought it was the floor. :)
