How luck was on my side this halloween...

When I thought about about what I was going to be this Halloween I thought for sure I was going to be a member of star trek. I had the costume from when Star trek came to theaters earlier this year. But when ever I told people they looked at me funny and usually said something not to nice... And slowly it was starting to drag on me. So when I was helping a friend find his costume I really started to want to be something else. Now my friend, Brett, wanted to be a pirate so we went on the hunt to find a vest. And when we did find them I really wanted one too. So I bought one. It was on sale for 50% off... How could I resist? So I brought it back home and started thinking you know I could be a pirate too... So I pulled out my tarted pants, flip flops, hoop earrings, a white t-shirt, and a green bandanna. Then I should Leon and Jen and they gave a funny look and then Jen said "Are you a pirate?" I replied yes and then they said "you need a belt, and a different shirt, and I have a bag you could use." So they then raided their room and pulled out all this stuff for me to use. After all that the only thing I was missing was a pair of boots. And even that worked out in the end. After watching Opera, Jen found out that you could get a 50% off coupon of everything in the Payless shoe store. So we went and there were boots! really awesome black boots! They were originally $40 but I got them for $16! Because they were already on sale! So after all this is how my custom turned out:


Jen did my hair. I think she did a great job! Everything just worked out great I turned into the pirate I wanted to be!

As promised

I promised I would post some pictures so here they are!



This is a picture of my brother and sister in laws house. So no grass. But we do have a wild bunny that lives under the bush farthest from the house.



This is my bedroom. I have a really awesome queen sized bed. Don't be fooled this is one of the few times it is ever made. And yes I do have posters of very cute men hanging in my room.


Here she is! The whole reason I am down here! This is little Auna. Her full name is Aunaleigha Marie Walker. She is the cutest baby ever to be on this earth and I'm sorry if you think other wise but you are wrong. ;)

And that's it for now. I know there are some of you who want to see a picture of my hair cut but I haven't taken a picture that looks good yet. So you will just have to live with these for now. LOVES!

Social Butterfly

Ashley! I knew here since forth grade. but we didn't become close til about seventh. We had Utah history together and she sat right in fount of me! And that's when she asked me to hang out with her. And soon it was like we lived at each others homes. Her home was my home and mine was hers. But the thing you need to know about Ashley is that she is a rover. She is so friendly to everyone that everyone is her friend. And so she jumps from group of friends to group of friends. So she knew everyone in my group of friends. In fact she introduced me to Meagan. But she only stuck around for a few weeks at a time. At most. Then she would wander over to another group for awhile and come back in a month or two. But most people didn't understand that. People got possessive. And wanted to keep Ashley to themselves. And with Ashley you really can't do that. Or you loss her. Because of this Ashley was put under a lot of social stress at school. So she gained friends easily but those same friends lost her easily too.
But that's not what I want you to remember about Ashley. Ashley is a lot fun! She is the one in the party that makes everyone feel welcome. She is the one that laughs easily and makes you laugh because her laugh is so contagious. She is the type of person that cares for everyone and wants to help those who are feeling down. But she does it in a fun manner. Because with Ashley everything is fun.

Sexy Lama

Matty is the little brother of Mike Meyer. So naturally he tagged along with us when ever he had the opportunity. And slowly he became part of the group. He is so random and constantly hyper! He has this weird habit of screaming in the middle of the conversation just to shake things up. And he is all ways laughing and giggling. In a way he keeps us older ones young.
My favorite memory of Matty is when we were playing honey I love you. It was Matt's turn to try and make me laugh by flirting with me and he comes up and whispers in my ear. "hello.. you sexy lama." HOW CAN YOU NOT LAUGH AT THAT! HONESTLY! I busted up! I all most started crying! And ever since then when we first see each other we call each other sexy lamas.
I hope Matt always stays young, hyper, and a sexy lama.

Wild Child

Ari. I first meet her though my dear friend Meagan. Me and Ari didn't become really close til after our senior year of high school. That would be because before she was just so wild. She was skipping classes and acting so very tough. That it was hard for anyone to get near her. But though the softening touch that Meagan seems to have, Ari slowly became a girl that every one has to love. So instead of miss I hate the world Utah sucks take me back to Cali now or die! She is I LOVE LIFE! even though Cali is still better then Utah.
Ari is really good at coloring the truth. She tells stories from her life and adds a little action or drama into them. and it makes listening to the stories that much more fun.
When ever I'm really bored with what ever i'm doing all I have to do is call up Ari and she is right there to color my life! She makes me laugh, smile, and be crazy!
LOVE YA GIRL!!

it's been awhile

My bad! I just haven't been in the mood to write of late... but I am now! So what did I do I started a new blog. it's called by soraya fox. That is my new out of the blue pen name. So this will be my blog for my stories, poems, and other lit stuff that i need comments and stuff on. so go see read and tell me all the crap I need to fix. Much love! PS the URL is http://bysorayafox.blogspot.com/

DEAD!!!

After many months of freaking out my phone has finally deiced to die on me. So I am going all over the internet letting the world know what has happened. I am not ignoring you. I do not hate you. And I still love you all! I will try and get a new phone as soon as possible. If any one has an old t-mobile phone that they could lend me it would be much appreciated. But until then e-mail, face book, and talking face to face will be the only form of communication I will have.
This problem has really shown me how much we rely on technology. Is it a good thing? Probably not. But how else can we live in today's world? sigh... maybe we should all just learn how to read minds.

The Crazy One

Brooke Nelson was the one that was all ways willing to do something crazy with me. In my opinion she was crazier then even me. She would pull me up on chat and say "hey mya I feel like doing something crazy tonight what should we do?" and I would reply "Well we can go sing to a drive through..." And she would say "YEAH LETS DO IT!" We have yet to do that one but we have done other things. Well that's not really true either. Mostly we just plotted. But that is because no one else would go with us! Meagan would say something like " NO! what if they hate us?" And Chelsea would say "I'm not in the mood" and the guys would just say no because they were playing video games. So me and brooke thinking it would be no fun by our selves would sit back and watch the guys kill each other on halo. sigh....
But when ever we would get to the pool where we all hung out there was no holding back! Everyone loosened up! and brooke was usually the one to start the dunking. Which lead the guys head butting and throwing us girls across the pool. And to the belly flop contest. I have yet to learn to do a belly flop properly. I'm just to graceful. I don't know how... hehe
One of my favorite memories of me and brooke is when we were at the barlows house. And it was just me, her, and Chad. All three of us got in a wrestling match! IT WAS SO MUCH FUN! We sat on each other and through pillows at each other and all most killed chad a few times if I remember right. hehe
But brooke wasn't all fun and games. When the time was right she would just sit back and we could talk about anything and everything. She helped me through some of my rough spots when I was going out with her cousin. She helped me understand that family just a bit more. Brooke is an amazing friend :)
And yes that is her with her sky diving instructor in a sky diving out fit. Yeah that's what she did instead of a senior trip... THAT'S MY BROOKE!

The Geek of all Our Geeks

Everyone in our group was a geek in some way shape our from. But Tyler Gill was a Geek through and through. Not a nerd just a geek. And in our group being a geek was a lot better then being a nerd. Not sure why that's just how it was. I think he was probably the biggest geek because he fit the profile. Tall, really skinny, and quiet. And he wore the polo shirts with the tan color pants. He did wear t-shirts but only one weekends. hehe
But really Tyler was a really nice guy. He didn't say much but when he did it was all ways worth listneing to. He was funny. I bet alot of people don't remember this about tyler but tyler was one of the funniest kids in our group. He was funny by being loud. He did it by doing small little things that made everyone laugh. The little coment when we were all ready laughing about something. The phone call while we were watching the Gurge or his famouse gron that would make us all giggle. That was tyler.
Waiting and watching for his opertune moment.

The Difference!

I have found out the difference between hot Chocolate and Coffee! I have often wondered what the difference really was. So I finally looked it up. And the answer is (Drum roll) The caffeine content! chocolate does have caffeine but not enough to cause health problems. In a 8oz cup of hot chocolate you have nine milligrams of caffeine. While in a cup of Coffee you have 133millagrams. Make note that both of these are an average. So depending on the brand it could be more or less.
So all you LDS people out there. Make note that the word of wisdome says hot drinks. Not cafinated drinks. But the prophet Gorden B. Hinckley asked us not to drink caffien. So make sure your hot chocolate isn't to hot and your soda is caffine free!

Home Base

Mike Meyer's home was where the group gathered. We were all ways at Mike's. It is at his home where most of our treasured memories are shared. Like trying to play ping pong but really playing doge ball. Or the endless fights with the love sack. Where we would actually flip the love sack over and sit on the person under neath it. (these persons usually where Meagan or Chad but I think everyone had a turn being squished) A lot of the time we would watch movies. Of course we would all end up talking instead of choosing a movie. So this would result in none of us being able to finish the movie because of curfews.
One of the main reasons we were all ways at Mike's home, instead of mine or Chad's, was the fact that Mike was the one that all ways wanted to hang out. He was the one that pulled all the hang outs together. He was the planer. I don't think half of our parties would have happened if it was for Mike. He was all ways motivated. Mike was also the one that would end up driving us every where but that was just because his mom had the big suburban and trusted him with it.
Mike was the also the one you could talk to you. He was always willing to listen. I told Mike things I'm not sure I told anyone else. (Well maybe Meagan :) He never really gave advice just listened. And that was nice.
He was all ways a gentleman too. All the girls in our group went on at least one date with Mike and everyone said. "Mike would be my second choice." This was after we had all ready paired off. Or he might have been our first choice. But he would all ways open the door for the lady even if they weren't on a date. And he would pull out the chair and ah! he was the perfect gentleman.
Mike did make jokes and would wrestle with us and get in pillow fights with us but he was the one who knew when to stop. He would play pranks and party just like the rest of use. Mike was all ways a loud of fun. :)

An Awesome Friend

Chase Stewart. Wow. This man is going to change the world. I'm not even sure where to start...
Okay lets start with how he cares to much. hehe He can't stand seeing people in pain. He's gotten to the point where he doesn't even want to kill the bugs in his house. He will do every thing he can to get the bugs outside before he even thinks about kill them.
When he sees one of his friends who is in pain. He does everything he can to help them. If he could he would take the problem upon himself and and fix it. For example. I was going through a rough spot in my life. So I called up Chase. And we talked and he comforted me. And it wasn't until later that I found out that on that same night Chase was going through some troubles of his own. But he still put me in fount of those problems. And that is just one example out of many. I don't think I will ever be able to repay him for everthings he's done.
He also thinks. Alot. And deeply. We have had many discussions about books, religion, life, etc. that have lasted hours. I won't even go into any of the things we talked about because i wouldn't do the conversation justice. Just know you will most likely lose if you ever have a debat with Chase. I know I've been there. And he has taught me alot.
But Chase isn't a deep thinking careing to much guy all the time. No. Far from it. He teases the crap out of everyone. He is highly opinated about fashion. And likes ot have fun.
When ever I did something ditzy, Chase wouldn't let me hear the end of it for the rest of the night. I wore these knee high boots over my pants and Chase made the coment. "Captin Jake Sparow wants his boots back." Little did he know that I would take that as a complement :)
And when you can get Chase to lossen up he is the funnist guy to have at a party. There was a rock band party that I went to and it was fun. But kind of dull. Then Chase shows up with some kind of lemonaid that he mixed up and that's when the party really started. Everyone just seemed to lossen up and really party. That is where this picture is from by the way... :D
And that's chase. A fun loving deep thinking overly caring teasing kind of guy.

Adopted Sister

Okay when I decided to blog about Meagan. I wanted to find a picture that said "This is me and Meagan at our best!" And I think I did an okay job :)
Me and Meagan became friends during the end of Seventh grade. Or was it that summer... I can't remember (Oh and Meagan feel free to correct me on anything I got wrong ok?) But we were at a mutual friends house. Her name is Ashley (and she is on the list to blog about as well) any ways we were making Valentines and I don't think it was even close to Valentines day at all. But we started talking about the class we had next year and me and meagan figured out we had english together second semster! We just barley meet and we were all ready fast friends. Ashley Meagan and I became the three musketres! We hung out all summer and alot of the next year. But Ashley being the social butterfly that she is hung out with other friends while me and Meagan being the shy type back in Junior high stuck with hanging out with eachother. Me and Meagan became inseperable.
Meagan has all ways been there for me. Through my rough and smooth spots. When the rest of the group avoided me and Chad, Meagan was still there. When Chad broke up with me, Meagan spent the whole day by my side feeding me pizza and ice cream. We started college together. We had a cleaning businese together. We went on a road trip together. She lived at my house all through high school. We can tell eachother anything and everthing. There are only a few other people in the world that know me as well as meagan. And even then it's debatable.
I'm trying to think of a story that tells you what me and meagan are really like... And you know what there isn't just one story. So you will just have to read my book about when its published.
LOVES!

A Brother to Be

Jesse Flint is my sisters fiance. Well she's not really my sister but she is. I've adopted her. Any ways! I'm going to talk about Meagan in the next blog. This blog is about Jesse. Jesse is one of the sweetest guys I have ever meet. He never seems to get angry. And when he says he's up set he doesn't seem up set at all. He got pulled over by a cop when I happened to be in the car and he said "I'm so angry right now." but he said it with a slight smile on his face and in a tone of voice that didn't seem angry at all.
There was this other time when Jesse was trying to teach me how to drive stick I kept on staling! I was getting really frustrated and Jesse just sat in the back smiling! And he had this nervous giggle which I'm sure he was thinking "My jeep! My Jeep! my poor Jeep...." But he kept telling me it was okay. Everything was fine. He is going to make a great dad. I can tell.
Jesse has a weird sense of humor. He is really funny sometimes but other times... Well lets just say his taste in movies is... different.... He likes movies like Night at the Roxbury and Pineapple Express. I don't care for those types of movies or the sense of humor that goes along with them but Jesse has his moments. :)
Okay to end on a good note. The reason I really like Jesse. He makes my sister happy. He does every thing he can to make sure Meagan is as happy as she can be. And I can tell when shes in pain he's in pain too. Every thing he does he does because he thinks it the best thing for them, together, as a couple.
And it doesn't stop there. Jesse cares about all his friends. And does what he can for each and every one of them. He's just an all around amazing person. And I couldn't give my sister up to anyone else.

KJ Kershaw!!

This strapping red head is currently serving a mission in Connecticut! Me and him didn't hang out a lot when he was home. He was all ways in and out of the group. But for some reason I still feel close to him. He is the one that got our group to listen to rap. So I guess you could say he cultured us. hehe He made sure we didn't get to stuck in our kaysville drown for to long. He was all ways good for a laugh. One of my favorite memories of KJ is how he all ways said how good looking he was. And he believed it too! And he all ways seemed to have a girl friend. So this goes to show you that confidince is key men. Confindicne is key. Can't wait to see if he is still a ladies man when he gets back. Miss you KJ!

IF...

If has to be the most ugly word in the English language.
If leaves so much up to chance. It doesn't tell you anything. It's synonyms are :

Stipulation

Condition

Rider

Proviso

But

Qualification

If means you are not committing to anything. It means you might. It means things can change at any moment. It means maybe. It means nothing.

part 2 of "Trouble of falling in love part one"

Very quickly Meagan did a great job of telling the story of her first kiss but I would like to add what I know :)

First they must have been very distracted talking to each other because they drove right past the movie theater.
Second Meagan must have been in the clouds when she walked back to the door the first time because I heard Jesse yell her name the first time from my room down in the basement. That was the first hint. I knew something was up.
Third Meagan didn't walk down the stairs. She ran. And then walked down the hall. Second tip off. I shut my lap top and knelled on the bed waiting. And then she walks in my room smiles at me says "Night!" and walks off. I roll my eyes and just wait for her to come back. She did with an even bigger smile on her face. And at that point I knew it! "So...." I said "I got my first KISS!" Meagan replied. And yes I did squeal and jump off the bed (there is no room to run in my room) and grab her spin her around and through her on the bed. That's why it didn't hurt to much. But at the force I threw her and with me on top of her I can see why she might have thought it was the floor. :)

Well that is my side of the story of Meagan's first kiss.
Hope both stories don't clash to much.
Loves!

The weirdest Christmas ever!

Current Mood: Comforted

This Christmas was pretty wacked. My best friend in the whole world, wants to get married. But her family is completely against it. So she came over and talked to my parents about the whole dilemma. My parents are like her second parents. At the current moment she feels more comfortable talking to them then any one in her family. Extended or otherwise.

She would constantly show up at my house giving me and my parents updates on what was going on in her life. How her parents took the news, what ring she bought, what her bishop said on the subject, etc. I was constantly on edge. Waiting for the next update. Some times it was days before I heard anything! I was so freaked out. Having my mom hanging over me wasn't much help either when you put the two of us in a room we can come up with ideas of what could have happened. And they are usually disasters. Needless to say I was pretty distraught while me and my mom made pies for the neighbors. But as soon as my friend showed up I was fine once again.
The other distressing part about my Christmas was the fact that my favorite brother from Arizona only came and saw me twice during the two weeks he was here in Utah. And both visits were only for a couple of hours... It's kind of depressing. And his wife was in a bad mood both times. But it's not necessarily her fault. She's pregnant. With that fact behind us we must forgive and forget. although with the baby coming I can only see this situation get worse. I hope not I hope they come visit often. They have to! It's going to be my first niece or nephew! I thinks it's a boy but that's besides the point. They must let me see HIM!!!!

The last point on why the Christmas season was so... down in the dumps was... none, I repeat none of my friends could ever hang out. I have lots of friends that could hang out but none of my close friends. My best friend in the whole world (as stated above) was going through family problems. My other really really close friend that comes in a close second to my best friend was put under house arrest (so to speak) because her mom missed her so much and would not let her out of her sight! My newly acquired best friend lives in Lehi and had to work in Provo so he really couldn't hang out much. And my two other friends always have family stuff going on and couldn't really make time for little old me. But that's how it is every Christmas with them. So they are forgiven. Well they all are. They all had good reasons. But that fact didn't make this Christmas any less lonely. And it's not like they didn't try. Chase (the one in Lehi) answered the phone when no one else would and he would talk to me even if he couldn't hang out with me. Ashley (very very close second) tried to have me over to her house even though she couldn't leave but her mother freaked out over that too. And Meagan (the one in love) she had me over as much as she could, but due to the current circumstances that wasn't very often.

I have a few other friends. All guys. All LDS. All close to my age. So if you know anything about the Mormon church you know that that makes them all on missions! Including the guy I spent last Christmas with. Chad. He is the love of my life. I'm going to marry him as soon as he comes home. (We will have to wait a year after he comes home but that is also besides the point.) One of the reasons I was so lonely this Christmas is because I miss him so very much. Why does the Christmas season make you want to have ALL your loved ones near? anyways so I was trying to be distracted and it really didn't work. I was trying not to think of Chad and how is family got to talk to him on Christmas and I didn't. I was trying not to remember last Christmas and how much I wished it was that Christmas again. And was trying not to wish that Chad would call me. Because that would mean that he would be breaking the rules. And he told his sister how much he didn't want to break any rules because that would take him away from the spirit. But like I said. I failed. I hoped and wished and thought.

Christmas day I even kept my cell phone on me all day. And like the secret says my thoughts flew to the heavens and granted me my wish. Chad called me! I was so happy I was shaking I all most cried. Maybe God granted me my one true Christmas wish because he knew how much I just need a friend. How much I need to know he still loved me. Cared for me. So even though my Christmas was kind of down. That one Christmas present made it all worth it. In the end this might be one of the most memorable Christmases ever.